Things seem to be going better, but after the torrent of having to get and give information and deal with things, it all seems my meager powers have been overwhelmed. In short, a clean start tomorrow seems like a far smarter and more fair to myself thing to do.
After I'd written the above, I popped open a book I enjoy -- Silence of the Heart by Robert Adams. I pick it up from time to time, and although the book has the word "Silence" in the title is isn't what you might think. It is about the meanings behind Advaita Vedanta, not a treatise on maintaining Silence.
When I flipped open the book I read:
"You should not accept book learning at face value. You should not accept anyone's experiences at face value. You should develop your own truth. I can tell you, the world is Brahman, and that Brahman is Absolute Reality. Absolute Reality is Pure Awareness, and so forth. And so on. What good does that do to you if you are hurting? There are things that come into your life that you take very seriously. And, you do not understand that your social body is going through its karma, and it has absolutely nothing to do with 'You'. You identify with the conditioning. That is the first Truth you have to admit to yourself."Thanks for the reminder, Robert. Much appreciated.
And if you're new to the site or don't know what the word "Brahman" means, not a problem. Take a look at this series of posts.
